lessons learnt the hard way...

AMARAN! post ni agak panjang dan membosankan, dan jika diambil dlm dos yg berlebihan, boleh mengakibatkan kanker dan impotensi. Harap maklum.

aku tak brape pasti sama ada gambar sebelah ni relevan atau tak ngn post ni ^_-... semlm aku bsembang ngn abg kamal, rakan sekerja aku psl kenangan yang paling tak ble lupe dlm hdup... die cte psl kenangan die time tabligh, aku plak cite psl satu minggu yg prnh trjadi kt aku, yg telah mematangkan aku sedikit sebyk...

time tu aku masih menuntut kt salah sebuah IPTA terkemuka di selatan tanah air (Universiti Tendang Menendang- bkn nama sebenar, tmasuk la aku yg kene tendang... adooiiii sktnye...) mse tu umur aku 20, nk masuk 21... darah muda, tau nk mendidih je... silap sket maki hamun berjela-jela smp kering tekak... kemudian, dtgla 1 minggu yang telah secara tak langsung menjadi pemangkin dlm transisi aku dari remaja ke alam kedewasaan...

time 2 cuti sem, aku wt part time kt Eden Garden Hotel, Stulang JB... keje banquet, pnt cm pe, kene kuli sepanjang ari... gaji ikut jam, sejam $3.50... biasenye dpt pas abes keje, tp minggu 2 dorg bg lewat sket, so jumaat mnggu tu aku dpt utk 5 ari sebelumnya, dlm 200 cmtu... sronok gile...

abes keje aku pon stat moto gerak balik... smp je umah, aku pon gantung kunci moto, nk kuarkn wallet taruk atas meja... seluk pnye seluk, wallet takde... aku glabah, cri stu umah kot2 terkeluar dri poket... tak jumpe2, aku stat moto balik, follow balik jln aku balik umah td kot2 jumpe tercicir ats jln... cari wallet hitam tgh pkul 2pagi, umpama cari jarum dlm jerami... tak jumpe2, aku blk umah... tmenung, tgn atas dahi... $, ic, lesen n rodtax moto sme dlm 2... sengal...

esok nye, aku lpk Yan Burger, port kegemaran aku... yan blanje aku daging spesel memandangkan aku takde $ lgsung nk mkn, dr pagi minum air 0 je... pas lepak lbh kurang, aku pon stat moto nk blah... dgn kpale kusut pk masalh, aku pon rem2 trus grk tanpa toleh kiri kanan... tiba2 dtg 1 iswara putih, aku tak sempat elak... aku langgar side, footrest besi aku tembus bumper dpn die, mlekat la aku ngn iswara 2, terseret lbh kurang 20 mter... abes luka2 aku... pas kete 2 brenti, aku pon bgn slow2, angkat moto paking tepi, duduk ats jln, tmenung... mamat 2 kua2 maki2 aku, aku takde respon pape... sib bek yan si tokey burger dtg, tlong setel ngn mamat 2... die cadangkan mamat 2 repair kt bengkel mbr die, sume bil yan tlong setel dlu, nnt kire aku hutang ngn yan la... die siap explain cite yg aku ni ilang wallet semalam so tgh kusut... mamat 2 pgg kata2 yan sbb die pon regular customer yan gak... so setel la mlm 2, trime kasih byk2 yan sbb selamatkan aku... balik umah, aku tmenung, tgn masih lagi di posisi yg sama, atas dahi... esoknye aku anta moto kt bngkel Syien... sib bek aku ngn Ah Syen 2 agk kamceng, utang la dlu repair2 pe sme...

bape2 ari pas eksiden tu, bdn aku still sengal2... mbr aku cdangkan gi urut kat pakcik tukang urut kt ungku mohsin, Larkin... aku pon gi la... pas urut sme pakcik 2 siap bagi ubat akar kayu lg... aku pon tny la die, bape sme dgn harapan die akan jwb "bape2 je la, seikhlas hati..."... sangkaan aku meleset sbb jawapan die "urut 40, ubat 30..."... aku time 2 baru je pinjam 40 ngn mbr, wt modal menyambung hdup, skali kene byr urut lak.. aku pon ckp pakcik 2 ubat tak nak, so byr urut je...

dpn umah pakcik 2 simpang T, ade traffic light sme... aku dh dpt iktibar dr eksiden sblm 2, so brhati2 la aku melintas... usha2 kiri kanan, kete sme tgh brenti sbb dorg lampu merah, aku lampu hijau... aku pon kua... skali dtg la 1 biji moto spore ni, dh la langgar lampu merah, langgar tyr depan aku skali... die time 2 mmg tgh laju, tpusing la moto aku, tp aku sempat melompat, pas2 landing baik siap bdiri tegak lagi... aku takde pape, tp moto aku jahanam... tergelak jp aku tgh2 simpang 2, mengenang bala menimpa2... mst org len igt aku dh gila... aku pon angkt moto, try stat... ble jln lg, tp dgn tangan kiri aku dok ampu lampu dpn sbb tkeluar, handle senget sbb fork bengkok... pe la nsib ko cad8326, bru pas operate dh saket blk... aku pon gagahkan diri bwk pelan2 smp tmn u, anta trus kt syien sbb takde makne aku nk simpan dgn keadaan yg cmtu... aku pesan kt syien tnggal stu dlu, ade $ nnt bru repair... die ok je... aku pon mnapak blk umah...

mlm 2 aku tmenung pnjg mengenang nasib... myb ni sme ujian dari Nya wt aku... dlu, aku pantang ade pape je, mst nak mencarut, maki2 hamun... agk2 nye ni la cre Allah nk kasik ajar sket same aku... sib bek Dia bagi seminggu je dugaan kt aku, klu kasik cm Nabi Ayoub a.s., bpuluh2 tahun punye dugaan, mau gile aku... stat dri mlm 2, aku jd agak matang, tak sebaran dulu2 dah... pengalaman ditimpa dugaan selama seminggu 2 membuka mata aku agar jd lebih sabar...

cheam heng yip...

i guess it is pretty damn easy to figure out which one is me, since i am the 'fairest' among others ^_-... as stated on the top left of the pic (which i wrote when i was 7, and yes, my handwriting hasn't changed much ever since), this pic was taken during my first year in that school, class of 1 Merah @ Yi Hong (in Mandarin)... i still remember vividly on my first day of school, without knowing a single word of mandarin, or any other Chinese dialect, i bravefully stepped into the classroom... and in the late 80's ('89 to be exact), there aren't that many malays that send their children to chinese school... nobody approached me since none of them can speak malay fluently... i took a seat beside a boy, who then i get to know his name- cheam heng yip (seated on my left in the pic)... he knows a bit of bahasa, but sign language helped a lot... and since that day on, we were friends...

heng yip was a bright student... everybody likes him... the teachers, the students (especially the girls because he was kinda cute, a mix of young andy lau and the nasty edison chen)... he always get A's in exams, and he was also the head prefect... he helped me a lot in my studies... i was struggling for the first 3 months in that school since mandarin is not my mother tongue, and barely no one in my family knows chinese except for chi-sin (which means crazy in cantonese)... so whenever i have problems in finishing my homework, my father would send me to his house which is about 40km away to get his help...

after standard 6, both of us went for seperate ways... he got into chinese secondary school, while i went to mrsm... from then on, we only meet like once a year, during chinese new year... and each time, his mother would tell us to stand up straight side by side, to see who is taller...

then, on 2004, i got a call from my sister saying that heng yip had an accident... he died in a car crash... there were 4 people in that car, and he was sitting in the back... all 3 others got only minor injuries, but he got killed due to internal injuries... i guess that it is already written that death knocks earlier at his door, at a young age of 21 years old...

throughout the years after the accident, i have a few dreams about heng yip... muslims believe that if we have a dream of somebody who has already gone, we should offer some prayers to that person... i was not sure if this also covers for the non-muslims as well... but as my sister puts it, who knows, maybe he did get the hidayah from the Almighty before his death... there is nothing wrong in saying prayers to another human being, no matter what religion he believes in... so, to my dear friend, cheam heng yip... may god bless your soul and may you rest peacefully in the hereafter... amin...

CHEAM HENG YIP (R.I.P) 1983-2004

New matrix sequel leaked! - Matrix: ReTAMILed

when the matrix trilogy meets sivaji the boss ^_-

rockopiah: labur@lebur?

2-3 ari ni paper byk tunjuk psl artis2 msia kne kencing... skim melabur tp rupenye melebur... nk wt cmne, zaman skang ni mcm2 skill org menipu... so berjaga2 lah, n jgn mudah sgt percaya org... care plg mudh, jgn amik port pon klu ade org ajak sembang bisnes2 atas angin, yg duduk saje pon ble dpt duit cmni... bkn ape, pikir logik la... spe nk bg duit senang2 kn? bak kate nabil, ah lu pikir la sindri!!!!

antare yg terkene kencing yg hancing 2 adalah otai2 rock kite yg kental2... tgk kn pade latest pic dorg, insaf dh kot... amy 2 rsenye dh lme bjinak2 ngn kopiah ni, sjak blk umrah 2... yg hattan 2 xsure la plak... sejak kene kencing agknye... wallahualam...

Renela Cafe and Cuisine: Revisited

please be informed that now our cafe is serving breakfast and nasi campur, and the 30% discount is no longer available. lauk byk choice, harga murah standard nasi bungkus gerai, serius tak tipu hehehe...

when others did what we should do: a review on "Pensil"

i'm a movie buff, but a really choosy one... i choose to watch movies that are worth it to be watch, and deserves to help me in spending 90minutes (or more) of my quality time... drama is my favorite genre as compared to action or comedy, since drama has lots more to offer rather that showing people kicking each other's butts or spoofing other movies... the best movies are the ones that can make me cry, or perhaps tickle my tear gland... i am sam, a beautiful mind, and 7 years in tibet are a few movies that never failed to do so, no matter how many times i've watched them... i'm also into spike lee's and m. night shyamalan's, their work have never failed to impress... as for actors, i go for "actor-actors" such as edward norton, johnny depp, sean penn, brad pitt, denzel washington and samuel l. jackson...

i do also watch local movies... but not the ones that are produced by either usop aslam or prof makdia abd razak mydin-wholesale-store... the 1 and only local movie that made me cry before was KAMI, with allahyarham Sudirman as its main actor... (not the new 1 that features 3 hot chick with 2 dude + indie songs^_-)... it was the best local movie ever in term of its essence... nowadays, malaysia's producers are more likely to make movies that resolves around 2 (or more) lovers, mat rempit, illegal racing, mat drift or whatever morale problem that we have here in our country... these so-called movies were said made to educate the public, but ended up being imitated by kids who watch them in order to look cool or get hot chick... wtf...

but then came along m.subash...

^m. who? m. nasir and m. rajoli kenal lah, tp m. subash? hero tamil ke?

that was my first reaction when i read his name on the poster... i didn't have the guts to watch the movie "Pensil" when they played it in the cinema before... afraid that i might waste rm10 to fall asleep... but i was totally wrong... thx to fathimz who downloaded the movie, i've finally get to know who m. subash is... he is both a great actor and good director in the same time... i mean, he acted like he was really born like that... i was touched that an indian guy can make a movie that emphasise on Allah's greatness, while malay-muslim directors and produces opt for romance and bullshit... while other directors wasted months to make a movie, this great guy only need 6 days to do so... the whole 1 hour and 49 minutes of the movie kept me thinking on how fortunate i am to be born as a naked healthy infant... able to walk, talk and live normally to this day...

thanks m. subash... looking forward for your next masterpiece... and the next time you make one, i'll make sure i watch it in the cinema, not by downloading it or get pirated dvd, wokey macha? ;p

music knows no borders...

i've stumbled upon a video in youtube today, of an old english guy singing aci2 bukak pintu... his singing was perfect... kalau gi audition af ni, abes a bdk2 sengau sme kene tapau hahaha... enjoy

nostalgia zaman berita harian cuma 50sen...

Renela Cafe and Cuisine

currently i'm working in Renela Cafe and Cuisine, probably until the semester break is over... this cafe had just opened for a month... for those who like to savour your taste buds in a cozy place at affordable prices, do come and check it out...

btw, this flyer was modified by me from a previous one, on my 2nd day of work -_^... i've added in a few things so that people can know more about the cafe, and hopefully decided to come and dine with us...

for those who are from around shah alam probably would able to understand the map... cafe kat area shoplot sebelah masalam, deret darul ehsan medical centre, hujung sebelah bank persatuan... serius sedap beb, aku ari2 mkn hehehehe

the suicidal mind

this guy here committed suicide by shooting himself through his mouth... na'uzubillah... so kids n adults alike, please don't try this at home

what's in a name?

well... this is my first post... actually i've blogged b4 but my previous blog only had 4 posts in it... at first it was quite overwhelming to see all the comments that were posted by friends who followed it... but as time passes by, the idea cage in my head kept shrinking... and finally i've stopped blogging ever since, until now...

what's in a name? as a muslim, i do believe that a name and its meaning plays a pivotal role in a person's life... it should have good meanings... hence, there are many parents out there who spent days to name their newborns... as in my case, my parents had somehow named me with a girlish name, while i was born with a tiny little thing dangling proudly between my legs ^_-...

a few jokes had been made by people around me about the name, including teachers alike... used to be pissed off by it, but eventually got through the whole emotional scenarios... btw, i do have a nickname which my friends mostly call me by it ever since i was like 10, and now i'm 25... having people called me with that name for such a long time, made me feel like it is like my real name... and to make things worse, i felt awkward whenever my real name is being used... silly me...

for those who might want to know what my nick is, it is apeq... it was given to me by a boy who rides the same bus with me when i was in year4... during that time, i was the only primary school kid who take that bus, while the others already in secondary school... i will write more about this later on... the name apeq came to his head due to the fact that i was studying in a chinese primary school at that time... and somehow that name sticks to this day...